I look back at Dad and Mom, Tom and Shay, Stuart and Amelia, as well as Rose and Tom. Sure, things may have worked out fine for me but I would always have known that something was missing. Before you came into my life, I was on a one way ticket to no where. I really do not mean to sound cheesy but you do “complete me.” If I did not know you, if I did not have you in my life, I would not be me. I want us back! I want our family back! I want to enjoy the rest of my life with you and only you! I do not want to lose the best friend that I have ever had nor do I want to lose the only love I have ever had. They each have our best qualities, but I think the past couple of years have been amplifying the worst of our traits in them. And Emily, wow she is so much like you it just scares me. I was the same way, I never seemed to please Mom and Dad. She really does remind me of a young version of myself. I see it in Jane, she tries so hard to do everything right. It breaks my heart to even try to know what she thinks of me.
The way she acts is so frustrating, it is like looking in the mirror and seeing the two of us mashed together. I see it in Tara, the way she has almost distanced herself from me. I want and wish for us, not just you and me, but us as a family to be close again. I love you with every fiber of my being and I always will. I do not want to guess anymore, I want to know what you need. We have been through so much and I know I have not been supportive to you in the ways that I need to. You know I am not really good at expressing my feelings unless they are on paper. I know I have, but it was not my intention. I have never meant to make you feel belittled or disrespected. I have been nothing but insensitive to you and. I know it can be done because I see what you have put up with over these years. I have never felt this way in my entire life, and I just can not control it. I am having a really hard time processing it. I know I have become overbearing with jealousy and distrust.
#Apology im sorry paragraphs for her how to#
I just do not know how to react to anything between us. I know I sure have not made it any easier. The past few years have just been so hard on both of us.
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